Well I'm still here and Pat's still here, but it's been touch and go over the past two weeks.  I have finally been ground down and had to admit to pat that I kissed Ad in Portugal.  However, I've been very pleased that I didn't do anything physical and therefore, there is no lie when asked about the next step. There was none.  For me, life goes on as per usual, whereas for Pat, he's been dumped in a maelstrom of new emotions which has caused chaos with his sleeping, moods etc.  I feel very sorry.  Sorry for him and what he's going through, sorry for myself in getting caught and sorry for Rope, who is caught in the middle, not knowing what's going on.  Maybe this is the pinnacle of the last 5 years.  Maybe I've not been content for that long, maybe longer.  I love my life, but sometimes feel slightly buried in it all.  Does this feeling happen to everybody? I wonder.  I know that it will be very difficult for a long time now. Nightmare.

Nonsense

I'm not writing at the moment because Pat's been on the warpath about my "relationship" with Ad.  There is no physical "relationship", so I can't write about it because it's just the never ending story. Looked back at my yahoo blog and 2005 was just the same.  I need a ticket out of here.

Sorry

I'm sorry I haven't written.  It's been pretty hectic as we had Anna's birthday on the 7th so that lasted for the whole weekend.  We've also been camping at Woody Hyde and I managed to get slaughtered on Saturday evening, which wouldn't have been bad, but Rope was there (he'd just got home) and although I'd been very sensible throughout the weekend, I wasn't on Saturday.  I couldn't help it, although I can't remember it very well and managed to nearly get caught in a clinch by Patsy.  Well, when I say nearly, it was properly.  What a donkey.  All the excuses that it was a goodnight kiss were ignored and I've been in purdah ever since.  Haven't seen Rope either.  Not much going on at the Howards' either.  We had a curry with them last Thursday, but it was a bit odd.  I don't know what's going on, but I think they have issues too.  I'm sure it will all come out in the wash.  Had a good bank holiday weekend.  We were supposed to go to Cornwall but Anna has a nasty cold and we didn't think it was fair on either her or the aged Ps, so we stayed local and had a lovely easy few days which we all needed I think.  Sian was secretly pleased that we didn't go as I think she was going to miss us. Bless!
I will work harder at keeping this up as my memory for stuff is pretty bad, so I should do it as and when it occurs. Promise.