Well, survived the weekend but practically fell apart last night after drinking lots of red wine when we came back from the Forest. We watched "300" and I thought it was ok, then we watched "Hot Fuzz", but I honestly can't remember watching the ending, so things must have been bad :$ When I woke up this morning, I didn't even remember watching Hot Fuzz at all and had no recollection of saying goodnight to anyone or going to bed. That is very bad indeed isn't it? Today at work has been very quiet though, so that's something.
Am expecting my brother to turn up. He said that he was coming down Tuesday/Wednesday, but i've heard nothing from him since last week. Neither have I heard from Dad, who is also coming round. P's brother is also round as he's split up with A, so it was very busy at ours last night, with someone in every room!

Well, it's half term week, so that means no rest for me. Although I've been off work all week with a cold, I had to forego my girly night drinking session so that i could get up at 7.30 today and take P and his nephew M fishing in Lymo. I've also got to pick them up at 6.30ish, so won't be able to start partying till later. we're going round C & T's for the rugby, which I'm looking forward to, but still there's no lie in planned for me on Sunday as the guys want to go into the forest to search for mushrooms and have a picknic and apparently we need to leave early to get the mushies before the Italians and the Polish. So, no rest for the wicked at all this weekend.
Got Weds, Thurs and Fri off, so will take advantage of a bit of R&R then and then it's P's birthday the following Monday, so I need to get my shit in gear for that. S x

Well, it's not been so bad, the last couple of days. I'm working at home again and generally enjoying it, although I've got a bit of a snuffly cold. I think I'm going to pop round the corner and see K after work as I feel like I need a bit of girly giggling. Hopefully she feels the same. I haven't heard from Rope since I dashed out of his house on Tuesday, but that's not really unusual. I tend to text him late in the evening when I'm slightly slaughtered and so I doubt whether I make much sense. It's probably best that he doesn't text back. Watched Night Watch last night. I thought it was very good and very Russian!
I went to see my old friend H on Sunday and we had such a good time, just chatting and chatting. It was lovely to see her and we'll get together more now that she's back in the country. Keep you posted.
I've also started a course learning how to use Frontpage 2000 so that i can set up a proper web page. Keep you posted on that too!

Sorry!

Well, this is not good at all is it? What a waster! I can't even remember what's been going on since my last Death by Bolly post. I think we've done Cornwall and had a good time, summer has gone and we're all looking forward to the mushroom season, which is taking some time to get going. The boys are currently fishing for sea bass and when it's too rough, they're snuffling for truffles. P went off yesterday on a cep hunt and came back with ONE! Not really enough for a risotto is it? Must try harder! Anyway, while he was away, I decided not to spend another lunch hour at home on my own, so I went to the bank and then went round to Rope's. He's back for inheritance stuff at the moment. Stood in his kitchen talking to his sister and to assorted workmen who are doing up the family home, drinking coffee. Got a call from P on the old mobile saying, "where are you?" and without thinking I said "Rope's", to stony silence. He'd only forgotten his key. I wonder if that was a control thing, so that I wouldn't be able to go too far. I'm getting the silent treatment at the moment. I know he's upset, but it was just a coffee and a general chat about tax and property and money, and I was lonely.

Death generally

Well, since my last post, Bolly had died and we've all been slightly shell shocked to be quite honest. He'd had cancer and liver failure brought on by a life of hedonism, but that's no excuse is it? The way I found out was horrible; Rope emailed me and said that he'd just heard from AJ about it and thought I should know. I phoned James and he said to speak to Pat. When I called him he was very angry that I'd heard it via email, even though that's the way things are now. He said that he knew for an hour but didn't want to contact me because I had a 40 mile journey to get through to get home. All hell broke loose and i had to come home anyway. The funeral was very sad indeed, made worse I think by the room full of men sobbing their hearts out. the wake was a relief and it got very messy indeed. Not for me though, so that was good as i had to go to work the next day. Since then, I've had a week off and felt very out of sorts but i think that's because I've not been sleeping at all well. Never mind, I'm sure it will calm down soon.

Onwards and Upwards

yes, rope left yesterday and texted me to say that he'd landed ok, although his bike was damaged in the flight. he sounded much happier, like he'd been let out of prison and i'm glad he's back where he considers home. I've given myself a good slap round the face and talking to and things will begin to get back to sensible i'm sure over the next few weeks. he said he would email when he gets a chance, so he's not totally incommunicado, which is good.
Anna was 10 on Monday and we had a brilliant day. we went bowling and then to coriander for lunch, then in the evening, i took her to see spiderman 3 which was very scary in my opinion! she enjoyed it though and we've decided we're the film girls in the family. Unfortunately, i had to buy her Happy Feet for her birthday, which is the most boring, plotless film i've ever seen i'm afraid, but she wanted it, so she got it. Happy days!

Well, things are definitely calming down around here after the year end rush yesterday. i'm supposed to be doing my firm's year end too but it can wait until all the invoices are in, so that i can maximise the profits. Had a good time last night. Rannoch came round and had tea and then the boys went back to his to watch the football. Me and the girls washed hair and watched a filum, "Stand by Me". it's an old film, sure, but with the teenager spending nearly every waking moment with her friends, it's a good one for her. Rope is leaving next Tuesday the 8th. Don't know how i feel, well I do, actually - in my head I think it's the best move he could make, in my heart I know I'm going to miss him terribly. there, it's said.

Had a lovely weekend, finished off with a great BBQ. Pat catered for 24 adults and droves of children and I was the hostess with the mostest. it wasn't too bad really. we were up at 8.00am sorting out the garden and pat had to build the bbq as it was new. It went together very easily though and there were no tears or strops. All the food was actually very delicious and there was loads of it and salads etc. At the end, there was nothing left, so it was successful in that respect. After most people had gone, there was just me, pat, eddie, fran, dean and charlie and Rope sat round the fire wok, absolutely sloshed to pieces. it was very nice.

Well, yesterday we celebrated the teenager's 15th birthday, with the appropriate pressies, mobile phones and TV and my thoughts turned (as they usually do) to birth and death. All in all, I think we've done quite well with the kids. It only goes tits up when external factors are included, i.e. school, friends etc. I think i'm suffering from an emotional breakdown at the moment, or, i've got too many hormones for my body. found myself sobbing uncontrollably in my car to the lyrics of "Earth to Bella - Pt II" by Incubus this morning on the way to work. Hmm, definitely hormones. although, the lyrics are very close to my heart at the moment. I'm supposed to be going to an art exhibition tonight. I'll see if anyone is coming around first and if theres no one, then i'll go check it out. it's at the lighthouse and my friend Sarah MacDonald is exhibiting some stuff. Maybe i'll take the camera and post some piccys up here.

Well, it wasn't so bad when i went home last night. SO gave me a hard stare, so as Rannoch was there, I gave him (Ran) a very big "pleased to see" you friendly kiss. I'll show him. Especially, as I've worked so hard not to have any flings when really, all I want to do is just that. Never mind. It will all calm down after the waning moon. Teenager was ok last night. She said that word on the street is that there is some very strong Ecstasy around which is putting people in hospital. I'd heard, but it's good that she's getting the nod from her peers. she believes them more than me. Haven't heard from Mrs H for a couple of days. I wonder what she's up to.....hmmm, will update you next week.

Hello!

Well, we had a lovely time down in cornwall for the aged P's 50th wedding anniversary. Hired a lovely converted barn and felt quite posh actually! My birthday was ok, apart from the fact that I had to buy all my own presents from SO because he couldn't concentrate on anything other than the pond. Never mind. it's all logged.
Was accused today of maybe having a fling with ropehead. Never! Is thinking about it tantamount to a fling, I wonder? Because if that's the case, I've had an affair with all his friends. Snort!
Teenager's having lots of trauma too, so things are a bit up and down at the moment. I'm spending quite a lot of time at the beach hut and I think this weekend, I'll go into the sea and do some snorkelling, even there aren't very many fish around at the moment. At least I'll be able to say that I went in in April, so that will make me feel great.

Hols

What I forgot to say in my previous post is that I'm on holiday next week and therefore I will probably go quiet for a week or so while I get my head together. Things are a bit "emotional" at the moment, but I'm sure things will calm down. I'll let you know.

A short moment in time

Well, this is my first blog thingy and it will probably be my last. Just wanted to write a note to say that I'm not very good at keeping things going, apart from all the spinning plates in my life, but i'll try and load some piccys and secret thoughts up from time to time.